Today was interesting. So at first it was fine and then I found out that my roommate was talking bad about me behind my back to all the friends I’d made. I honestly cried, a lot. And Meggan said “Alright we are getting you out of there now” And they moved me to my own room without a roommate and I’m happy. I can relax, finally. But besides that it was pretty fun, we really didn’t do much though, (yet). They also moved me in the middle of lunch. Uh, then we made posters for the presentation. And now we’re blogging.
Later we are doing a presentation thing and I’m incredibly nervous. Well, it should be fine, hopefully.
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We haven’t done much yet today, we had a scavenger hunt in Cyber security, we won 3rd and got a lot of candy, like a lot. We had to figure out the secret computer code thing and wow that was hard. We are going to lunch soon, I’ll probably just eat pizza again, honestly. I’m excited for the other things we’re doing. Especially the Lego Robots thing. We do shark dissection today. I don’t know if I’m excited or sad; The poor shark. I think we’re doing engineering today? That’ll be fun. I feel kinda better today I guess, only two days left. Some of the people just really drive me insane, but whatever.
ED I T: The shark dissection was kinda bad the fumes gave me a migrain
the engineering was fun but I was blowing up the balloon and got light headed and had to sit down. The robots were super fun though !
I don’t know what to do, nothing is going right, I’ve resorted to talking to counselors, because stuff. I really want to go home and sleep in my own bed and draw and watch TV and youtube, I know there are only 3 nights left but, I don’t think I can do this anymore, I know I’ll regret it but, I’m on the verge of tears every single day. I can’t sleep and I just feel super homesick, I have to get up early and everything is loud and I can’t take all the noise, some of the people here are really loud and crazy. I just really want to see my family. Most people are having fun but, all the moving around, I’m back with my old roommate and I don’t understand why I can’t be alone, I guess. My roommate makes me uncomfortable and the people I know are super sad and homesick and so that just rubs off on me. Honestly, the atmosphere feels kind of like school. I really think I need to go home. I know this is supposed to be good for me, but it’s just making me sick. The stuff I was excited for, we aren’t even doing. Personally, I don’t see the point in staying the rest of the week.
Well, we did some stuff with microscopes, and interior design; which was super fun, and yeah. We had this formal thing were we talked to people in different professions. That was cool, I guess. I just want to cry. I want to actually get some good sleep. I really think I need to leave. Just give me the freedom to do that? Please?
Last night I had a bad panic/anxiety attack, super homesick. I don’t think I’ve ever been that homesick actually, I was trying to stay calm 8 breaths in, 8 breaths out. For once in my life, the breathing didn’t work. Now I was really in a state of panic. I hurriedly messaged my mom on Discord “Hey, Um, I’ve never been this homesick I think I need to go home, maybe, please, help, please help, I’m going to cry” I won’t get into detail why I was panicking, for privacy reasons. She told me to talk to my dad, I messaged my dad the same message and he helped me calm down, I wiped a few tears off my face and went into the bathroom and sat down, he helped me figure out how to get to sleep. “Recite an episode of Steven Universe you know really well, it always works, duder.” I was out like a light.
I didn’t get much sleep last night, because of some stuff. Although, I’m getting a new roommate so that’s good. Okay, now to today’s schedule, first we had breakfast; which was good, I suppose. After that we had our core class, Cyber Security; a little more boring today, unfortunately. Lunch, After lunch we had an aviation class thingy, we didn’t do the simulation which made me sad. Then Goals For Girls, a setting goals class. Then we had Chemistry; we made some cool stuff, a bath bomb, florescent flashlights, etc. Then we had dinner, now we’re here, blogging. 🙂 Hopefully I’ll get better sleep tonight.
I had a pretty good day. It was exhausting, because in the morning we had breakfast, (which was the longest line for food I’ve ever seen), and then we went right to Cyber Security class for three hours; those three hours went by pretty fast actually, we played confusing coding games that were fun but super difficult. We went straight to lunch after that, we got ice cream from the ice cream machine, which was nice. We went to the planetarium after lunch which was absolutely stunning, we looked at constellations and watched a planetarium show after we simulated New Horizons’ journey to Pluto. All that was super fun, but super tiring counting on how I didn’t get much sleep.
I learned that NASA actually knows about two other solar systems! The narrator of the planetarium show talked about how Pluto is almost all ice. Cyber security is really interesting, actually; passwords are fun to come up with, cracking them on the other hand. The only goal I made was to attempt to make friends, which I have already accomplished. The food was good, The lines for the food were Really long and Mary, Josephine and I decided to wait to get in line until it died down a bit, to our disappointment the line only got longer, it got so long that it zig-zagged through the whole dining hall, we eventually got some food thankfully. I made a few friends, Josephine, Mary and Ash. They’re cool, it’s a little hard for me to open up though. (I’m working on that skill, the friends that are super close I’ve known for over 2 years at least).
I still have my heart set on being an animator to be honest, I do love most science and tech and Cyber Security is really fun. After the blogging session we’ll go to dinner, and after that Kinesiology (I honestly have no clue what that is) If I’m this tired the first day, I can’t imagine how tired I’ll be the rest of the week.